I know it's just hair, but hearing that doesn't make me feel better. You look at yourself everyday in the mirror. When you walk by a mirror and catch a quick glimpse and see something out of place, you stop and take another look. When you look in the mirror you don't think twice about seeing yourself without hair. If you really want to see what you'd look like bald, put a good ole fashion cut piece of panty hose over your hair. (Think of a bank robber back in the day). It changes the entire way you look at yourself. I feel like a little old lady (very old, think 90+ yr. old) with thinning hair, some straight, some curly, maybe a little bed head, but definitely someone that needs to have her hair 'fixed'!

I've gone my entire life with a lot, I mean A LOT of hair. BIG, TEXAS HAIR! Yes, in the 80's I had the big curly hair and it was all free, all natural. Yes, the blonde was mine, the curls were mine. My hair was easy. It was dry, never oily. I could wash it once a week and literally 'fluff' it with water and some products. Over the years, I've learned to embrace my hair. You can even say I was known for my hair. Ask anyone that knows me and they'll tell you I could be spotted a mile away because of my hair. Natalie calls it my trademark. How Ironic that I'm now losing it?

I'm afraid I won't make it until Friday with 'my' hair. So today I began 'playing,' attempting to curl and style my wig. WOW, do I already hate that thing! It doesn't look natural, because you can obviously see the unnatural hair line. Our hair lines are not straight, why would they make wigs with straight hair lines? I can't seem to get it just right, it's either too tight or too loose. And of course it's straight. However, the color is dead on! Therefore, hats will be my new best friend.

I know the time is right to shave my head. I've just made one more last appointment with my stylist to possibly just go very short. I've even heard from several people today if you cut your hair during a full moon it'll grow back faster!

Here are 20 reasons being bald is better than having hair.

20-No more hair cuts.
19-No more highlighting my hair.
18-I can save money from not cutting or highlighting my hair.
17-I don't have to sit in a chair for 2+ hours to get cut and highlights.
16-I can save money on hair products.
15-I don't have to wash my hair.
14-I don't have to fix my hair.
13-People can rub my head for good luck.
12-No more hair falling out. Before chemo we'd always find curly blonde hair-EVERYWHERE!
11-I'll be able to try all kinds of new hair styles once it grows back.
10-I can sleep in because I won't have to fix my hair.
9-I can wear all kinds of cute hats.
8-I can look like Mr. Clean! NOT.
7-People can look at my eyes and not my hair. ;)
6-I won't get hot from my head full of hair.
5-Shorter showers.
4-No more sweaty hair from working out.
3-I can't get lice.
2-I can be the butt of bald jokes.
1-No more bad hair days.

Just a short list, yes I'm sure they're more but for now I'll stick with those!  All I keep thinking is If I'm brought to it, He'll get me through it! And have Faith, that's it, Faith is all that's needed to calm my soul.

Hugs, kisses, Prayers and lots of love to each and everyone of you!